Tuesday, January 28, 2014

All He Needs is a Chance.

Today, January 28th, Camden had his first appointment at Scottish Rite Hospital for Children. Let me first off say that Scottish Rite is a great hospital and I would recommend it who anyone who has limb abnormalities. Everyone there is so kind and they have a lot of cute old people who volunteer at the hospital. Today at Camden's appointment, things didn't go how I thought they would. I expected to hear that Camden would be able to get prosthetic arms and that he would never be able to get prosthetic legs. I was so so so wrong!!!

First we went to the hand doctor. She looked over Camden’s arms and I thought I heard her say something that I didn’t want to hear, so I asked her, “Will he ever be able to use prosthetic arms?” She said, “No.” I started crying immediately. The more I looked at Camden, the more my heart broke for him. I knew that nothing was my fault, I didn’t do anything wrong, and there was nothing that I could do, but I felt like I failed my son. I don’t really know how to explain it better than that. The Doctor said that he would never use the prosthetics because he would never feel with them and they would be heavy.  I may have totally taken this first appointment the wrong way, but all I heard was someone telling me that my son would never be able to do something.  That was her first mistake… Please don’t ever tell me, or my son, that he will never be able to do something, without giving him a chance. I gave Camden a chance at life and I expect everyone to give him the same respect. All he needs is a chance. I am planning on moving back to my home state, Georgia, and I will be getting a second opinion, I may have to get 3 or 4 different opinions, but I will find a Doctor who will give my son that chance, when the time comes, for him to start trying out prosthetics. I don’t care AT ALL if Camden NEVER uses prosthetic arms, but that will be Camden’s choice. I will not allow someone else to make choices for Camden.

Last we saw an Orthopedist and a couple of other people. We were told that Camden is smart for his age (proud Momma moment) and they said that the activities we do with Camden are great right now since his movement is so well, but I need to work more on tummy time and try to start getting Camden to prop up on his arms and roll over. Let me tell you something though, Camden Lee Steele Whiddon is SUCH A FLIRT!! When one of the ladies walked into our room he must have fell in love because he was smiling at her and turning his head side ways and giving her a look. He is just way too cute!! Anyways... The Orthopedist came in and looked at Camden’s hips and sent us off for an ultrasound of his hips to see if he has any femur at all. We went into the ultrasound room and Camden was awesome at first, but then he started screaming so loud, so I had to lean over the table and breastfeed him while they did the ultrasound. I think that may have been one of the most difficult things I ever had to do! When we went back into our room the Doctor told us that Camden either has a little tiny bit of femur or a ball in his socket. They aren’t sure which because he is still so small and his bones haven’t calcified yet. I am also not sure if this is on both sides of his hips, or just one. But, this means that there is a chance that Camden will be able to have some sort of prosthetic legs in the future!! Only time will tell!!

Today I went into Scottish Rite thinking my baby boy had a chance at getting prosthetic arms and no chance at ever walking. I came out having to tell myself that I can never give up on my baby boy getting prosthetic arms and I was given hope to see him walk one day. Its funny how things can switch up. I did not hear what I wanted to hear at all, but I know that MY God has an AWESOME plan for Camden!! I just need to remind myself to ALWAYS pray and to put all of my trust in HIM! I know God will do what is best for Camden.

{Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. -Proverbs 3:5-6}